Day 14

Well today's lesson conjured some old memories (from 1996) and some thoughts that I have to allow GOD to help me with. (1) I remember a bitter root growing because I co-signed for a Montgomery Ward credit card for my best friend at the time so she could get her car repaired; I ended up paying that $800 dollar bill; she never paid on it. I didn't want to be in her wedding (she asked me to be her maid of honor), I didn't go to her baby shower (she invited me). I was truly upset. I didn't talk to her for a number of years. Even after I was saved it took me time to get over this. I felt used and she took advantage of me; and I just didn't like it! But she decided I know you applied for the Montgomery Ward account for my car - but I'm not paying it, you are. I made a vow after this that I would NEVER co-sign for anyone again. Today we don't have the closeness (we re-connected in 2004) we once shared but we can talk and it was good reconnecting with her after so many years.

I also realize I don't want to have joint credit card accounts with my husband. I don't want him to responsible for my debt and I don't want to be responsible for his. I don't know if that's selfish, or if that is a mindset that should change - and I honestly don't know if this is right or wrong. I don't think its fair to me or him to have to pay or help me pay for my choices. I notice it said in the book only co-sign for your husband - my stomach turned. God, please help me because he can have his own cards and I will continue to use my debit card. Now if my baby needs some help - of course I will help him; but I don't want to responsible for his debt. But what GOD would say about his is all that really matters - I don't like it; but that doesn't mean I can do it my way; I realize that.

I know the bible says, 'the two become one'' but does that apply to this? Real talk. Today I came home and fixed some vegetable quiches and oven-roasted potatoes; they were tasty. I have enough for food and gas for the whole week; I only have $15 of gas in my car and will be mindful of my trips this week I will only go to cell group and bible study and the rest of the week; I will come home. And the journey continues!