Day 15, 16, 17, 18

I realize that the greed chapter didn't have much of an affect on me regarding things; I am not greedy for things- but I realized I have had moments when I wanted that my debt could be a quick fix; that have sufficient savings could be a quick fix. I want it now! I realize now its a journey and not a quick fix; it took years to get here; it will take time for these and other financial situations to change. Now I realize I must be greedy (adamant) about surrendering my financial situations to GOD and then I will stay and remain on the right path.

I must admit I had never heard of financial fornication. I can remember every men I have had a relationship with (before Christ and after Christ) and we NEVER discussed money, amazing. I never bought it up and neither did they. It either wasn't necessary or up for a discussion.

I felt yet another breakthrough on the Peace chapter; I enjoyed reading this. It loosed my mind from the beat up I gave myself for past errors. But after reading this along with reading "The Shack" I realize that I can learn from my mistakes and make wise decisions and see the reward over the next few years. My prayer is that GOD will restore all that I have wasted and lost. And if HE so desired to bless me he will - but I'm thankful for what HE has already given. So I focus on my two issues for this year and I will save, invest and spend wisely. Worrying will not change these situations; but working at it will. I told a friend of mine this fast has become a lifestyle not merely a fast.

On a deeper level I realize that I am preparing to reach great financial freedom; but I also think of my children and others that will benefit from what I have learned during this experience.